it’s an orange only october can explain
the roundness of everything is a beginning
and a beginning is hope.
love letters to begin the seasonal ministry,
the chorus bellows new hues of fat love from a clean slate
i sing to trust as the cold drops into a very familiar heat,
a temperature we have had every conversation with,
moist hugs, layered tank tops, the smell of sunscreen
hanging out on the hairline as I kiss you good night.
falling in love with you all over again, believing in you for the first time,
each time, understanding yet another ochre yellow, deep grey green,
a brown that roots in deeper to a thought process hungering for the
finding me inside my peek a boo breath,
the vulnerability of varicose veins,
meridians & school bus yellow lines
the road mapping out the direction to my dream.
oh and the fatness! the ok-ness of all the rotund love-
the acceptable obesity inside the celebration of a squash,
round, rind, bright & warm from its nap on the ground.
puy lentil soup with the last of the early girl tomatoes,
the turning on of everything inside –
all the lights, red, roasting the love, flesh down, skin up,
waiting for the heat to hit it’s number, I scan the wisdom list,
the to-do’s of my survival, my weekly vows of overwhelm and
messy me and the birth & death of everything that
continues to happen,
the blood of it all.
hoping for some energy in the gas, more time in the fuel and all the
dreams of heroes,
the freedom they exude, their firm triceps & hip
the stories in my hips are hiding tight like cross stitch
come with tears.
dying for love? possibly.
how can we really know anything?
the years continue to ground me in knowing less,
finding my way below the neck,
not thinking about anything,
autumn begins: breasts to feed all of us inside kombochas,
pumpkins, butternuts, all the nourishing shapes we may
remember as warm love in our story somewhere.
a beginning is important to keep going,
it’s vital for survival & it’s happening now.
turn oven on 400 convection* bake
place squash on casserole dish
(big enough for 2 halves of your squash)
pour oil all over squash
(2 second pour)
you can also massage it with the oil
put in the oven for 20 minutes
take out after 20 minutes & cut in half
(should be soft to cut into)
then place squash flesh down//skin up
put in for another 20 minutes
need to add any more oil here)
fork it to see if it's ready to your liking
texture, hardness, softness etc..
i usually keep seeds in as they add to flavor
you can scoop out after and toast
them with the last bit of heat in the oven
(*if you have convection//no worries if not)
you can leave this out on the stove top
with a beauty linen on top to cover it
in it's dish for warming later or noshing
as you go about your day!
you can mash it with earth balance or butter,
just serve as is, you can also put it in the
creating another beauty love fest